Sister

I have an elder sister...I wont say we were close friends or something.. But ya we did has a good sister stuff when we grew up. When we were in school, we used to fight a lot and its usually me who goes crying to mom. I am the big fan for all the dishes my sis used to cook. I was the personal assistant for her in cooking department. When I entered my adolescent age, she helped me out in getting in terms with it. When we were growing up she passed any tips & tricks to me.. Then she started her college.. and later me started college.. I think something during that time changed a lot. She always felt that my parents are pampering me and spending lotsa money on me and not on her. Some complex got in and she used lotsa sarcasm to let me know of it. She is always is a person who used to say 'I told u so' when I am actually in trouble. So college done and me was trying for MS and she for marriage. Fortunately she got what she wanted from my BIL and came to US. She did contributed financially for mom n dad.
But somehow I feel that she was never there emotionally when I needed her or not in the sense I needed her. May be I concluded so when I see hubs side and his bonding with his sister/brother. When I was trying hard to convince my parent for my wedding, she didn't open her mouth. She was actually protecting her place in family... and she is always like that. She wont risk her position for me.. May be I am wrong in expecting so.. I don't know. But I am person who stopped keeping any expectation from any of my side people..
This week she had planned to go to India for holiday, but in the last min it got cancelled. Here we were trying to get hubs mom visa so she can be here for my delivery. So when trouble came and it was doubtful whether MIL will be able to make to consulate, we both were worried on what will happen if MIL is not able to come.
Hubs were all positive and was telling me that now since your sis is here, she would be able to come and help. So when i spoke with her, I explained her the situation and asked her whether she can make it. But she simply refused. She was thinking of all kinda excuses. She was suggesting that why don't I ask mom. It hurted me. I know I should have known better before asking her. When she itself not ready, how will my mom who hasn't talked to me after my marriage will consent to come and help me now... When Hubs heard my sister reply, he started making sarcastic comments, but stopped it when he saw my face.
So I was wrong in thinking that, just because someone is talking with me and saying caring words that they will do anything for me. Everybody have their life and wants to protect their position in it. It doesn't matter whether they r your parents or sister. Would it mean that they were not a good parents or was not a good sister. I don't know. That would depend on the definition of 'parents' and 'sister' correct? Do I think that were not good. I wont say that, I should not be comparing them with others correct. I know them and now I know their priorities. I am not perfect daughter or sister, similarly they are also not. That's the story. Ya maybe next time when arguing with hubs over family this could be a negative point but its OK. That's that. No use in crying over spilled milk!